Well, I got a serious case of the blahs....
Tomorrow is my family's Christmas celebration. Most of us work in the casinos and must work on the big day....
And I can't motivate myself to get one Christmas present! I'm a real dud. It's a symptom of my spiritual state, which really needs a lot of help, folks....
Money's sort of a hassle but it's not as bad as years past when I had none. I can get some up with some difficulty- I do have some savings....
Then there's my son who won't return my phone calls and all that emotional distance jazz. And his big brother who also won't return them but for different reasons. I just don't feel like being diplomatic when I see them tomorrow. You know, unselfish and kind and understanding and all. Blah!
What am I going to do? I just can't show up tomorrow with nary a gift. *Sigh....
Oh boy, don't know how I am going to get out of this one.
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